If there is a god, god has failed me.
Apparently I'm not supposed to be given more than I can endure. Well that's what they reckon. Dunno what happened with me then. I coped way more than I could possibly endure.
To the point that I nearly topped myself. If it wasn't for the help in the secular system here I wouldn't have survived.
The pain from the past still lingers. I wonder today, when will it end? Will it ever end? Is life for me now simply dealing with that pain? Or will it dissipate one day, and allow me to find some happiness?