What a week!

Saturday. Didn't get up till midday. Slept a lot. feeling quite crappy. Headache, sore throat, aching, tired and lethargic. Oh happy days. At least it's the weekend. 

Fuck what a week that was. Big crisis meeting regarding the HIV. Well, that may be a bit of an exaggeration; it was more about absenteeism and WTF was the problem more than simply just the HIV itself. Most of the time off was due to depression/suicidal-ness, injuries and the like. I did make the point though that there would be times in the future that I would have to have days off directly caused by the HIV virus. 

I get the runs a lot, not just normal runs, but the sort that has me in so much pain as to try to stop hyperventilating from it. I have allergies now that I never had before. Other month my eye blew up like something out of Frankenstein simply from rubbing it in a dusty room the night before (it went down quickly with antihistamines). It even seems I'm allergic to cold weather FFS; a cold wind will make exposed skin incredibly itchy for a time and red. This because my immune system is now hyperactive and goes bananas at everything. And I've learned of late that a simple cold or mild flu really needs to be looked after aggressively or I run the risk of going to hospital with it. 

Then there's the thing that now 2 more people at work know of my condition; my production manager and the big head honcho factory manager. They both seem very willing to help in any way, and sexuality wasn't discussed at all in the meeting (as it shouldn't have been), but now I find myself when they look at me wondering what's going through their mind.  Having HIV still carries a huge social stigma for much of society (excluding the gay community). They're not allowed to be judgmental or in any way hint at being against equal opportunity for all, especially in the big company we're in. But it does bother me at times what they must really think.

Anyway just trying to look after myself a bit more lately. That flu before was quite scary in the end. S had a steamer thing at his place, and lectured me about having the correct nutrient intake for someone in my condition! :) Got a cheap one on sale back here in Sydney. Sold on the idea. A fantastic cooking thingo. Just buy fresh veges (very cheap too), chop them up and chuck them in, go away for half an hour and it's done. My insides feel much better for it and I haven't had the runs since buying it. Can do rice as well, steamed fish I suppose but haven't figured that out yet.

Thanks S.