Friday 31 October 2014

Suicidality - the cancer of my mind

I can be going along fine, dealing with everything OK. And unexpectedly something can trigger my mind. 

How quickly my head moves to these dark thoughts!
I feel alone, not understood.
"Nobody understands!" My mind screams at me.
The fragility, the precipice...
And why? WTF happened?
Loss of control. 
Fear of where my mind can take me.

Such episodes can come and go for me. Triggers can set off a bloody canon in my head at times. Worst of all is I don't realise it's a trigger until after the event.

Round the next corner. Over the next rise. What awaits? Will I be able to cope? Will my mind let me?

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