Unwell

Dunno if it's all related or not, but I feel terrible. My back has been aching all over at work, head hurts, stomach pain, little appetite. I also feel very depressed. Fuck is this shit going to happen every Dec? Feels like the world around me is going on detached from me. I'm just there with little interaction. 


Came straight home from work today felt so bad. Just wanted to be home, safe here, nothing will happen. Shut the door, pull the curtains, sit there staring into space. lie in bed and close my eyes for a bit. The cat comes and lies next to me. I'm so tired am happy to have a simple meal and sleep as long as I can before work tomorrow.