Sunday, 23 October 2011

A visit from the monster

It hasn't happened in ages. I don't even know what I was crying about. Just started crying last night and couldn't stop. It went on for about half an hour. By the end of it I was short of breath and feeling really anxious. Simply the fact that it was happening at all was a worry in itself. 

The pain monster is of course an old acquaintance. It used to come around about every day, and sometimes the periods of crying lasted for much longer than half an hour. Today the monster has been fairly dormant and it hasn't been by in quite some time. So yesterday was a concern. I'd hoped those episodes were past. 

I suppose I could look at it more positively. At least it's only the first visit for a while, and only a short one at that.  And perhaps the release of emotions is a good thing sometimes. Even if it is a gut wrenching release.

Feeling drained today emotionally. An episode like that takes a lot out of you. 

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