Wednesday, 6 June 2012

No rhyme or reason, no blame

The resulting scans showed that while the SCSR and the anterior temporal lobe activate together in both guilt and indignation in healthy brains, the brains of the once-depressed individuals functioned quite differently. During feelings of indignation, the SCSR-anterior temporal lobe linkage worked fine. But during feelings of guilt, the regions failed to sync up so neatly.

Participants who were most prone to blame themselves for everything showed the greatest communication gaps between these regions, Zahn and his colleagues reported Monday (June 4) in the journal Archives of General Psychiatry. Importantly, once-depressed participants didn't notice feeling any differently when they read the guilt and indignation sentences, suggesting that this breakdown in communication is not felt consciously.

The researchers can't yet say if pre-existing brain problems cause the communication breakdown, or if the depression itself causes this troubling pattern. Fortunately, Zahn said, the coupling of the SCSR and the anterior temporal lobe is known to be influenced by learning.

"It's likely to be the sign of something that happened because of learned experiences, plus, of course, biology," Zahn said.
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A suspect than anyone who's gone through a terrible depression will know exactly what the above is talking about. It has been a huge moment of empowerment on the odd occasion, to realise that something that you've been blaming yourself for years for, is not actually your fault. The guilt is released. 

You can't take blame for something you can't control. Suddenly life, the memories, become clearer than ever before. Suddenly you realise much of the guilt you suffered through needlessly over years. Releasing such things is exhilarating!


I've thought about this a lot with contracting HIV. I went from assuming that it must have been my fault as I was the one bending over and giving in so to speak. But then again, why was I being so self destructive? I had undiagnosed Post Traumatic Stress, my head broke,  and I drifted....     the sex and the drugs,    bla..... we all know the story........  Is it my fault I ended up like that?


No. NO! It in fact was nobodies. It was change. Fate. No rhyme or reason. Nothing. It just happened. There is in fact NOBODY to blame, let alone ourselves.

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