Staying above the pain

Am skirting it right now. Keeping away. Doing anything I know how to stay away. I know the monster is there. I know the monster may use any opportunity to rear it's head. Yes I know only too well. We're very well acquainted this monster and I. Well beyond the niceties of introductions. 

Have been looking around on the net for images, something that might portray this monster. There are quite a few in fact. I will shortly make a separate page to put all the images on that I deem expressive of such. For now here are just the odd one or two:

The primordial scream as the waves of pain role over you. The blanket of feelings that blocks you from the future. The wall with no future.

The scream is just the beginning. The wall the blockade. Life becomes a nightmare. One worth ending.

This is what I face. This is the battle of my life. I don't now want it to end, but I still face this pain.

It's always there lurking in the background. It never ever ever goes. All I can do is try to separate myself from it. It's the only way.