Immensely tired

Long weekend here. Queens birthday. Dunno how old she is, but I'm sure the old bird is just about fossilized. Dunno WTF they're going to do if Camila ends up as the next Queen, fuck you couldn't put that head on a coin. Her horse would be a better option. It's better looking. Gives me a chance to rest more I suppose, was very good sleeping in this morning. Still raining and cold in Sydney. 

Have been a bit concerned about the fatigue issue of late. This weekend particularly I've been immensely tired. Simon has been surprised at how early I've been going to bed.
And all I need is one late night, or one night where I don't sleep well (like indigestion) and for the next couple of days I'm exhausted. 

It's a difficult thing to get through to people sometimes the whole tiredness thing. Particularly as I look completely healthy otherwise. There's nothing at all visually that would indicate I'm HIV+. I wonder if Simon and others as well sometimes forget. I mean going to bed at about 7:30-8:00pm every night isn't exactly normal. But I often find I'm so tired by that time, especially after working all day, that I just don't have a choice. It's either bed or fall asleep in the chair.

Of course there are other things that make me tired, not just the HIV. I mean my job would make anyone tired, even a healthy 30 year old at the prime of his life. Or even this weather we've been having in Sydney for days now; it's been pouring rain and cold, and I think I heard somewhere that your body uses more energy to stay warm when it's cold. Then there's my age, 49 now, no spring chicken. So there are other factors, but I guess adding HIV on top of it all can make the fatigue that much more.

Am also finding myself a bit worried as to why they called me in early for more blood tests. Am I tired because something else has gone wrong with my kidneys? At least I can assume there's nothing majorly wrong, as the appt was made for the end of this month and not particularly soon.