Political burnout

Been running out of steam here of late on the blog. Been wondering WTF is going on. After some self perusal I notice some kind of fatigue. The nearest I can define that is as hate fatigue.

Politics has interested me a lot, and still does a lot. At the same time there are some very unpleasant experiences to be had out there in politics land; experiences of hate coming from the last people that I might expect. Christians, the religious, those who espouse a god of love, find it necessary to preach hate to me. To me as a person. To who I am.

Some of my latest foray into the political world that we live has deeply shocked me. There's been a few incidents that have stuck out. No, the nationalist fascists in Europe weren't really one of them; I'd expect hate from them. So they're calling for the death of all gays, bla, meh, whatever, nothing new there.

It's been the religious that has truly shocked. The sight of thousands of people protesting a few gays on a bus in Russia, that bus being physically attacked by orthodox Christians, priests entering into the violence and leading the crowd, was deeply disturbing. This was more than just a heated debate, more than the to and fro discussion that thrives in democracy. This was shear unadulterated hatred. 

I know people can and do have different religious views, and that's fine. But why oh why do they have to hate us so much? What have we ever done to them except just wanting to live our lives? How have we hurt them? How have we ever hated them? LGBT is all about love and inclusion. We of all people don't deserve the hate.

Sometimes I wonder if society on earth is in it's death throws. We're beyond the point of no return with climate change, sucking up the planet's resources like there's no tomorrow, competing and warring with each other over power, politics, religion and resources. Trapped in different ideologies, each proclaiming the blessing of god. Tribal warfare. Our toys are bigger and better, but our minds are in the dark ages. How long will it be before humanity destroys itself?

But forget all of that. It's us gays darlings! It's all our fault! We're the ones destroying civilisation you know (one fuck at a time I believe). Just read that 2,000 year old piece of anachronistic crap called the Bible! Never mind that it was written by a 2,000 year old society.

I've decided I have to concentrate more on my own little life of love with David and my daughter (and the three cats). For my own sanity. I'm tired of being called immoral when I'm not the one hating. A sinner when I've rejected religion. A degenerate when I spend so much effort trying to regenerate. A reprobate when I'm trying my hardest, often to just stay alive without topping myself. Having an agenda when all I have is what's left of me after a life much longer than the 51 years I've been on this planet. Tired of all these assertions, when all I want to do is love people and get along. 

And that's assuming I don't even have HIV.